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    Hope Like Forgiveness

    Alpine forest and cloudy gray skies

    Posted on August 24, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    Although Texas is home, I don’t always feel safe or supported here. Growing up in the country afforded me lots of time outdoors on long summer days, where I’d run along the white gravel roads, passing acres of tall oak and hackberry trees, picking blackberries with my best friend J, swimming at the local lake bordered by low limestone walls amid shrubby juniper trees. I found safety and security in the friendly trees, the cool waters, the open sky where I’d fling prayers upwards when I was scared, which was often. One of the best gifts my parents gave me was their love of the outdoors, and if I had to pick a place called home, I’d say it’s wherever I can go outside and slip into the landscape, remembering my true belonging Read more

    Late Summer Reflection

    Juniper trees under a bright blue sky in Santa Fe.

    Posted on August 10, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    Years ago, I’d write in the evenings and be lost in swirls of tears, ancient and unbearable shame weighing me down like granite rocks. The voices inside would condemn me for writing, creating, using my God-given voice, and I’d fall apart under the weight of their recriminations. And now here I am, sitting upright in my writing room, pen and paper in hand, spilling words onto the page in hope and fear mingled together. This triumph isn’t lost on me, the work it’s taken to get here felt deeply inside.  Read more

    A Brief Remembrance of My Father

    Sunset with light in horizon and darkness below.

    Posted on July 15, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    My father had moments of crystalline clarity in which he would say something that would stop me in my tracks, making me pause to catch my breath from the goodness found in his words. These brief times of peace with my father were sacred thresholds through which we would stumble together into stillness and rest awhile in the love that broke through. I recall them with great fondness because they were rare due to my father’s troubles. . .

    I’d love it if you clicked here and read the rest over at Story Sanctum. 

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    The Aftermath of Coming Out

    A blonde child in a LGBTQIA-affirming t-shirt at a Pride parade.

    Posted on June 25, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    Last year I penned my first essay about the wonders of queer joy, coming out publicly as a bisexual woman living in Texas. The essay was well received, first by my Pastor Katie Hays at Galileo Church and then church friends and the readers of this honorable magazine. As the essay made the rounds among the wider online community of queer friends and allies, I couldn’t believe my good fortune, my blessing. Here I was, a now openly bisexual woman who had taken a conscious and intentional risk to share one of the most personal things about myself. My hopes in sharing the essay were twofold: that it would be a reclaiming of my own sacred voice and that other queerly beloveds would feel encouraged to risk sharing their most authentic selves with themselves and the world too. Because that truth is still true today, even a year later: God celebrates our queer sexuality as something that is good, true, and beautiful. . .

    I’d love it if you clicked here and read the rest over at Red Letter Christians.

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    We Spoke of Our Mothers

    A woman stretching upwards in a yoga pose at sunset.

    Posted on May 12, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    We Spoke of Our Mothers

    At the Egyptian cafe, we spoke of our mothers,
    eyes bright with remembered fear, words whispered

    quickly in the din, our wonder held at surviving.
    Haven’t you seen dying herbs, dead in the air, but

    still alive at the roots in the dark dank soil,
    determined to grow up proud anyway?

    We stun the world with our power, like my
    dead oregano, who grew back again after

    winter’s thrashing, newly green petals unfurling
    vibrantly, bending upwards toward the light.

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    Jesus Married

    A couple standing before friends holding sparklers.

    Posted on March 30, 2024 by Jenn Zatopek

    What if Jesus Was Married?

    I like to imagine Jesus married,
    he and his bride standing with family,
    the wife overjoyed to marry her beloved.

    I like to imagine that marriage
    made Jesus better at ministry,
    softer with the women he heard,
    kinder to the children he held,
    stronger with the authorities he challenged,
    sweeter in the friendships he cultivated.

    I suspect God needed a wife—
    a woman who embraced him
    for his essence, not just for his efforts,
    who yearned for his touch like we do too,
    who recorded many of his stories
    that make up the Gospels we recite today.

    I think Jesus loved us enough to give
    of himself because he was
    so well loved in return,
    by his people, yes,
    but also by his wife,
    the one who was God to him,
    who loved him just as he was
    and the possibilities he brought forth
    within her, yes, but also within the world. 

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