Something I Carry


Posted on February 4, 2019 by Jenn Zatopek

What an honor and privilege it is to be over at SheLoves Magazine today, sharing some of my experiences on overcoming grief and loss. I hope you’ll enjoy reading the essay as much as I enjoyed writing it!


I don’t know when the depression started. Did it start during the seemingly interminable winter months when I could barely get out of bed before 9 o’clock in the morning? Or did it start before then−during the holidays with new schedules and more family visits and less time for myself?

The answer is a mystery. What I recall is that I was deeply depressed during the winter months. Each morning before work, I crawled out of bed and went to the kitchen to fix breakfast. I made my way to the front room to pray, but wept instead. I provided counseling to others and tried my best to be of service. I slept on the office couch during the times when folks cancelled, praying to God for help, for strength, for anything that would help me find solace and hope during those lonely moments. . .

I would love for you to click here and finish reading at SheLoves Magazine.

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  • Reply Carolyn Goldsmith

    I just got a chance to catch up and read your latest posts, and I know I should have something more substantial to say but this is just beautiful and so poetic! It’s marvelous! I’m so proud of you, Jenn!

    February 23, 2019 at 3:38 pm
    • Reply Jenn

      Thanks so much for your support, Carolyn!

      May 28, 2022 at 12:11 pm

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